Erin Michelle Smith

Personal life story including childhood trauma, DiD, recovery and everything in between.

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Daily Journal

Just my thoughts about the day, the struggles and the triumphs. Not really serving any purpose other than to share my insecurities more than anything.

Being a Blonde Female (what this really means)

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Learning that losing focus isn’t losing myself—just gaining more ways to live, create, and be present in a world that finally feels open. [...]

Checking In

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A candid reflection on healing, identity, boundaries, and learning to live without fear—choosing authenticity, presence, and self-trust. [...]

Taking the time to talk

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Overthinking compliments... [...]

Being Gentle With Myself

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I know this is weird to say, but one of the best things I've ever learned was being gentle with myself. It's not that I couldn't [...]

Uncomfortable Trigger

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Ok - so last night was going so great (it ended up being great still but more on that). I finished my first pop'ish song set with my chord [...]

Waves - further examination

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To expand on the math inherit within waves: Basic Math Wave A: amplitude and frequency 3 Wave B: amplitude and frequency 4 mix both waves = 2 new [...]

Playing my Wave Calculator

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So, I did warn you that I'd write about misc. ramblings - here is one of those. Last few nights I've been plagued by a reoccurring dream of [...]

Questions...

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Recently, I learned that when I left the treatment center I had been attending, one of the doctors there contacted the VA about me. I don’t know [...]

11/26/25 - Had a rough start

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I started off not wanting to get out of bed. I had a rough night last night. Having fairly recently integrated my alters it makes me feel lonely. [...]