Erin Michelle Smith

Recently, I learned that when I left the treatment center I had been attending, one of the doctors there contacted the VA about me. I don’t know the full details, and I don’t need to—what I did hear made it clear they were attempting to portray me as someone who couldn’t care for myself or set boundaries. What makes that claim especially ironic is that my decision to leave was because my boundaries were repeatedly crossed. One of the clearest examples was the “quiet eating” rule: thirty minutes [...]

I started off not wanting to get out of bed. I had a rough night last night. Having fairly recently integrated my alters it makes me feel lonely. It's hard to describe without experiencing it. The night usually belonged to Aaron - he'd think his wild scientific thoughts, write his music or just play the piano, think of things that I just don't feel like I need to. I'm more concerned now with day-to-day things... like what chores I didn't get done. That honestly probably started it all. It's [...]